Motherhood pending, again…

Well hello old blog! It’s been a while, hasn’t it.

The past few years have been busy, and full of life in all it’s glory. I’m happy to say it’s been blessed times here in the Tingley household. Even as the world all around seems to be going a little more crazy year by year, I’m grateful to be held in a space of support, abundance, love and grace. I know this is not the case for many people around me – and I am grateful to be in a safe space for the moment.

But I’m also acutely aware that these safe moments will not last forever. We will not always be healthy and happy – that is ok. Between the changing ecology and crazy weather, the crazy economy and global political upheavals all around us, and the tightrope of health that we all walk in this ever changing environment – something is bound to happen at some point. I’m not doomsaying – I’m just trying to both recognize the beauty of my life as it is today, and also not be too attached to it – if that’s even possible…

 

A good friend today told me she and her husband are expecting. I’m SO happy for them, they’ve been trying for a little while. And it also makes me feel better that Nate and I aren’t the only ones breeding youngsters into this crazy world. We are expecting our second child in the next few days.

Funny how pregnancy taps into the creative spirit, and makes me want to write. Or maybe not so funny…

I’ve got a BUNCH of projects out there right now. I hope to be able to find some structure and discipline to get into moving many of them forward in the next few months.

I started a book. Scrapped the first draft because it was getting too long and depressing, and wrote up a second draft. That needs to be edited and put into launch mode – but it’s coming along. The book is about staying connected to the physical self while working in the virtual world, at a light-speed pace. I have a feeling I still have some stuff to learn about that before the content will be complete and mature enough for anyone to share.

I think since last time I posted, Nate & I actually got married on paper. That’s been nice, although the legal part of it is the smallest part of our evolution together. It’s really AMAZING to have a partner in life. Exploring how to deepen our love for one another together, without having to be shut off to the experience of wild love that flows towards us both from the universe at large is extremely healing and confidence building. We have something really special together and it’s been wonderful to watch our family grow and ripen together. Hope it lasts forever honestly…

Silas. Our kid is 3 years and growing fast! He’s obsessed with Star Wars and Darth Vader. And fortunately he’s healthy, smart, sweet, loving and totally obnoxious all at the same time. So very human in every way! He’s looking forward to becoming a big brother very soon here. And I hope that we continue to be up to the task of creating an environment where he can grow and flourish and develop to the best of his ability. And make as many  mistakes as he needs to in order to find his path and his heart’s desire.

My Mom is moving down to Texas in a few months. I’m starting to be pretty excited to have her around more. And glad she’s going to get a chance to know her grandkids up close. Hopeful that she’ll make a good life for herself here in the Lone Star state, and we’ll get to bond again on another level now that the kiddos are in the picture.

My Dad seems to be doing well with his life and his career. He’s a constant cheerleader for my career development path. My Mom is too of course! But I’m excited to see where 2016 leads me down a road of professional development that resonates with what I find most important in life and in the world. I’m very happy that I was gifted with a strong brain and that I have a lot of opportunities to grow in that regard.

My little brother had a hell of a year in 2015. I can only say I hope that 2016 is easier on him than the past year was. Although I’ve been proud to see how he’s handled adversity, and the ways in which his challenges have prompted some pretty cool growth in him. I hold a lot of space for him to find better health in the coming year. And someday, he might even take me up on my referral of TCM herbs and acupuncture to lighten his load. Maybe 🙂

And of course – I’m still obsessed with building just the right shelves and getting house things organized in a more efficient way. Some things never change 🙂 The little things especially!

Right now I’m just reflecting on the past year, in gratitude and realization of the constant flow of change over time. As I approach my 40th birthday next summer – I KNOW how blessed I am. And how rich. And how control over life is just an illusion anyway.

Hope to visit you more regularly in the next year little blog of mine. Regardless of if anyone else ever reads you or not, it’s therapeutic to put these words out there.

In the meantime, I look forward to my upcoming labor and delivery. My next really hot bath, and some time in the steam room. A return to my yoga and breathing practices. And hopefully an expanding road for my writing and professional development to continue onwards and upwards. Oh – and when I get to it – my next tattoo as well 🙂

Love & Life y’all…
K